Tish,
I am so very sorry for your loss You did the greatest thing a mother could do, you loved him!!! I hope everyone on this site realizes through your experience and through your loss and suffering just how vital it is that we all keep on living no matter what we have been handed in life. I have been taught that we will not be given anything we cannot bear, and just when I dont think I can go on another second, I do!!! We dont want to hurt anyone the way we hurt.