Keep checking in, OK?

Just a thought. If you were at the hospital, couldn't you refuse visitors? I remember people refusing visitors when I was there, although I felt like I needed that time to connect with the "outside."

I hope you feel better soon and just get through each minute as it comes. If you feel the impulse, just put it off for a few minutes and see if you can get through it. Walk away from the means and see if the urge passes. If not, then it's time to make a phone call.