Ugh. I was hoping to find someone before this appointment came up.

I have a name that comes highly reccomended by my T but they don't accept my insurance. I called the insurance today and tried to get this new person approved, but they said that there was a 99.9 percent chance that it wouldn't happen. I even pulled the, "Hey, it would be cheaper for you to approve this person than to pay for inpatient again," card. I told them I am on my third provider and am having trouble finding someone who can help me.

So my p-doc... I refer to her as "the shark-talker" because she spoke to me through a toy shark at the end of my appointment last time.

I really want to ask for a med adjustment, but I don't really trust her decisions, so I might have to stick with what I am taking even though it is not helping as much as I think it should. I am putting on too much weight and want to go off of Lithium. She told me that there aren't any more meds out there and that I would have to go for ECT. I have nothing against that if I have tried EVERYTHING else. There are tons of meds out there that I haven't even tried, but she has her few favorites that I have been through.

If she talks to me through a toy shark, I am going to grab the T-Rex she has in her office and tell the shark to F-off.

I am so done with her.