I've had days like that.
It helps to have a sense of humor in these situations but that wisdom usually fails me, too, at the time.
Maybe that's all depression is-the loss of a sense of humor.
Hmmm. (pondering...)
Well, you made it through the night and it's a new day. You were able to apologize to your Dad's girlfriend and you have to give yourself credit for that. You got a good long walk and you got your cigarettes. You got locked out of your apartment which is kind of funny because we've all been there.
You'll get out of your grumpiness. You're hurting inside, that's all it is. Just let yourself have a good cry and treat yourself to a day of pampering.
Hope you feel better soon, Lex. You're really having a tough time and I can't wait until the clouds part and a glorious ray of sunshine beams down on you and warms your soul with peacefulness.
(((((Lex)))))))