Deli,

What great progress you showed by telling pdoc about your feelings about Austin-T. You asserted yourself for yourself. That's so great. You three are a team, and it's great to read about how pdoc thinks so, too. He's committed to you and so is Austin-T.


For leaving the letter with pdoc. It's such a big step to share more about those parts of background with him. Very, very brave of you. I think on the contrary that he doesn't want to get rid of you, that he wants to check in with you and see if you're safe and comfortable after what you you shared. Such big, difficult info that you've been holding in. Maybe he wants to congratulate you for takign this step, and taking the step about the things you had to say about him--that's you CONNECTING in multiple ways on your own initiative. (Perhaps some recent changes in your life are bearing therapeutic fruit? ) I think you might benefit from connecting even more by returning his call or picking-up next time so you can be certain of his feelings rather than worrying.
You won out over so many fears with your appt. and the letter.

I'm thrilled to see you progress like this. Wow.