ripley, I also have problems making long-lasting connections with people, well mainly because I put everything into one person (so far, usually a romantic partner at that). It is the BIGGEST reason I am here. I know I have to quit relying so much on him to be everyone. Because not only will I probably push him away, but once he's gone, it'll be an even bigger loss than it would be if I had others to support me.

Yeah, I know, easier said than done. But I think that both of us are on the right track by being here. So far, everyone here has been so supportive.

I do feel for you, because I've known the feeling my whole life, it seems. Feel free to message me if you want to talk.