- How many times did you see the therapist? How many sessions did you have? she saw me 3 times in hospital, and I went to see her 3 or 4 times at her practice
- Did you seem to "click" with the therapist? Was he/she easy to talk do? Did he/she seem to understand your concerns? She was easy to talk to, mainly let me do the talking, I don't think I was able to click. May well have been due to the state I was in - I don't think i clicked with anyone at that stage. I think I tend to battle with OCD too, but more that I cling to people and back them the centre stage of my life, my crutch, my strength
- Were you able to be honest about your issues? Did embarrassment or something else keep you from giving at least a sketch of the full picture? Did you leave anything important out? I had to go through some embarrassing issues with her, including the fact I'd had a gay affair for the first and only time of my life. and she didn't seem to judge me
- What kind of therapy did the therapist do? Do you know? Not sure - I never really left with "homework" and found myself repeating the same things over every time I saw her.
- What did he/she do/suggest as a part of your therapy? Nothing really - she was more like an open ear
- What did you think therapy would be like? A bit more of a 2 way conversation, with the therapist finding common threads you may not have noticed, pointing out weaknesses and giving you some issues to work on until the next session. Obviously small steps
- How was the therapy you got different from this? as above - more of having someone there to talk to.

It's like I sometimes put on an ignorant front - I suffer from depression and bipolar which I view as purely a medical condition (And yes, i am seeing a psychiatrist who is helping finding the correct meds for me). I do not have close a relationship with my parents - and I had a pretty normal upbringing so there is no real reason for this - and probably a fair bit of jealousy towards my brother.

I used to be very anxious being on my own - like if my bf was working late or away, but I've got a whole lot better, after we broke up for a while and I had no choice but to be alone.
I just sometimes am ignorant and feel therapy will only help people with visible and obvious issues to work through e.g. sexual abuse, hi-jacking, alcoholism, PTSD... and I cannot say I have one specific issue.

But on some days my depression can get me so down I just want to grab every tranquilizer and drug in sight to knock myself out. Even now, I am tending to withdraw - i sit at work in my corner, with iPod and interact as little as possible and mainly via e-mail. Difficult when you work for a company the equivalent to Walmart!