Hmm...reading this I can't help but think your body is crying out, for affection. You must be pretty lonely! Are there any social groups you can join? Maybe join a gym, or a social bowling league?! Something that will force you to interact with people physically, but not in a sexual way? This might help get out some of your aggression and "horny" desires.

But I also want to say, you don't seem "creepy and crazy" at all! Everyone has different sexual fantasies, fetishes, whatever you want to call them. I have had similar sexual fantasies since I was a young teen. I won't get into detail either, but most people might be surprised what kinds of things I find erotic. That doesn't make me or you or anyone else crazy or weird...the internet is an amazing tool to see just how weird people really are. So if everyone is "weird" who's normal? I think we're normal. Thoughts won't hurt anyone...just make sure you keep them in check and realize they are just thoughts.

I hope you find some peace...oh and one more thing. I doubt you will die a virgin...the internet is a wonderful thing now a'days! People in their 60s, remarried people, people with kids and baggage...all gettin together with this wonderful dating device known as the internet...you'll find someone, have faith!