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Originally Posted by justfloating
how can you tell how much of your apathy -- of not caring, of not feeling like you can be bothered to do anything -- is related to the depression, and how much is related to the meds?
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Good question! It can be either or both. Bit like the chicken and the egg sometimes! My Pdoc says the same about the cognitive problems I have
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Originally Posted by justfloating
I have been suffering from depression almost three years, and I can't actually remember what "normal" feels like.
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I hear you! Nearly 3yrs for me too and I've been searching for 'normality' for so long I can't even remember what it looks/feels like! :s
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Originally Posted by justfloating
I thought it was a matter of will power but I'm starting to wonder if there's more to it. Is this because I'm sick, or because I'm medicated? Is there a way to tell the difference? Has anyone else experienced anything like this before?
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I have no idea. I'm sorry I have no answers. Instead I wonder the same things. If it's an illness, then why doesn't my treatment (meds & T) help? If it was a 'choice' or a matter of willpower, then why can't I change it - I've never had problems achieving whatever I put my mind too before this (I'm incredibly stubborn! lol) My Mum likes to relate every little dip in my mood to meds (she is very responsive to antidepressants while I'm...not.) and thinks my latest dip/apathy is due to stopping my one med (with pdoc permission) when I think it began over a wk before I stopped the med. A while back I took a med break (with pdoc permission - I'm a good girl!) to see if I could discover what was med side effects, what was 'depression' which helped a bit. Maybe u could talk to your pdoc about this?
*Willow*