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Old Apr 01, 2010, 04:05 PM
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I was with my ex for a year, he was my closest friend for well over a year before that, and we broke up 6 months ago. For the first 3 months we were still talking a lot and he wanted to be friends, but we also argued. Since after Christmas hes hardly wanted anything to do with me.

I don't really think I need to go into details about the relationship, except that we loved each other very much and I still love him. In the last few months he started getting confused with his emotions etc and what he felt, he said he didn't know if he loved me or not. He had always had anger problems but they started getting really bad. He had to self harm to let his anger out. We'd argue a lot, because I was so upset over how he now felt.

It was up and down for a while, but at the beginning of September things were good, but then we argued and he got really angry and 'snapped'. After that he said everything he felt had just changed, he hardly felt anything any more, and he couldn't be with me any more.

I was devastated, and just 3 weeks later he was seeing someone new (he didn't know her before we broke up so he didn't leave me for her). He still talked to me everyday and really wanted to be just friends. But me wanting more made us argue, until he 'snapped' again and he said this time he just felt angry with me all the time now. He didn't want to speak to me, but every few weeks hes contacted me for a little while. He says I'm the only one who understands him.

Hes been diagnosed Schizophrenic (he doesn't have delusions or hear voices, his thinking and emotions are confused), Autistic, and with Dissociation Disorder.

He says he frequently dissociates and doesn't care about anyone or feel anything for anyone or anything. He says he doesn't think he cares about me. When I talked to him he got very angry and he said he didn't even like me, and that he hates that I'm the only one who understands him...

How is his dissociation affecting him? Is there anything I can do? Did he dissociate from me or towards me, and does that mean that when he starts dealing with it some feelings will still be there?

He has a new girlfriend now, but he doesn't tell her anything thats going on with him. He says he has to 'act' all the time, with everyone, so he can act happy and interested and not just emotionless. He is always angry, and dissociates where he doesn't feel anything for anyone, including her. He says he can't talk to anyone about anything really, except for me. I'm really worried about him, I miss him so much but right now I'm willing to be there for him as just a friend.

Is there anything I can do?

thanks