Deli, I'm out-of-town and haven't been reading or posting much, so I just read your thread. I have a feeling that things are going to get better for you now that you gave pdoc that letter. I feel very sad about what you experienced growing up. Also, for what it's worth, I felt that you connected to me right away when I started posting here. I don't think we've been connecting so much lately, but I care very much what happens to you. I just wanted you to know that.