I think a combination of things led to my really irritable moments of rage. One being that I was on the wrong class of medication before being diagnosed with bipolar depression and the other being stress.

I have come to accept the fact that I can't deal with too much stress and I am trying to strike a better work life balance. I also schedule time for things I enjoy like hanging out with friends, going to the movies etc. Separating from my husband also helped tremendously (he was an alcoholic and may also be bipolar or ADD or something..). It really highlighted to me that
1. I need to stick to what my doctor eventually prescribed
2. I need to eliminate stress as far as possible and work in relaxation as much as possible...

I'm a completely different person now. It's changed my outlook on my career and life in general and completely eliminated the rage.... and damaged property!!... at least for now.

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