Well, my sister is gonna be having a baby. I'm the only kid left in the whole family that isn't having a baby or already has kids. At first I was happy to be an aunt, but I'm quickly plummeting. I feel so alone and just unimportant.

Everybody else has a purpose in life, but not me. No I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I'm just depressed that I have nothing to offer to the world. Ok, I know I have my love to offer, but I want to offer more than that.

I am such a disappointment. You'd think that I'd be the next one in line to be pregnant since I'm the middle child but it doesn't work that way. I want a child someday. Maybe not right now, but I do want a child. God, this is depressing me.

It's just that I want someone to look up to me and see that I love them unconditionally. I feel very sad that it's not me that the good things happen to.