1. How about asking pdoc to talk to Austin-T before Tues?

2. I fall into the "Austin-T does care about you and does want to work with you camp," but you've been through a lot this past week with pdoc sruff and then sharing so much that I can see where you might feel very apprehensive in general about taking another step that seems risky.

3. I interpreted Austin's comment to mean he'll be there at the appointed time for you to show up, but he understands you might not. I think he wanted to unambiguous about being there for you--literally.

Other than #1, no suggestions for you. It's all about your comfort level, and you're the only one who can gauge that.