Well I have been in a complicated situation. I had met a woman, and we seemed to click. I was heartbroken when she introduced me to her "boyfriend" and felt like the progress I was making was crashing down.

Well after a couple of weeks, and bieng ditched 2 times it appears as things are on the right track. The first time she stood me up, she was sick. The second time was less clear. I decided that I was just going to let it be, and she could call me if she wanted.

So last weekend I get a call from her, she wanted to hang out. It is at this point that she explained the last time I was stood up. It turned out that her "boyfriend" showed up, and she was in a rough position. He was mad at her because she was bieng to pushy. She wanted to hold hands in public, and not sit together when watching movies. He also thought she was out of line for bieng upset that she wanted to spend time with him, and expected that when they were together he would stop playing WOW, and playing on facebook... all the time.

We talked and and ended up hanging out all weekend. Well he pulled the lets just be friends card.. in a text message Wednessday. So now the just friends is turing into a little more. She likes me, and I like her. She commented when I picked her up yesturday that it was our 4th date (prior our meeting up was called just hanging out). We have plans for the weekend, and I am turned inside out.

I feel happy, and not manic happy, just happy for the first time in a very long time. I have a smile that I did not know was part of me, and people have noticed.

I have been advised by some to be carefull, but my therapist encouraged me to make the most of it. I think he is right, and that is what I am doing.

The darkness that covered me, is starting to fade. I am happy, and dare I say it have a girlfriend. Stuff that was not supposed to happen is.

To all who have supported me I want to say thank you. This has been a rough couple of months, but I am making my way. I am not obsessed, I am just excited at the possibilites that lie ahead. I am not manic, and not depressed. This is a new path for me, and am happy to have started the journey.