Grief. I know there's no right way or wrong way, but I'm trying to make sense of all the conflicting feelings, and it's so hard. I've never felt such deep-rooted pain before, immediately followed by such great relief, moments of joy. moments of total numbness.

Things are foggy and things are clear. My heart is breaking and my heart is full. I feel alone and I feel held and supported.

So much of what I read about grief has to do with losing a loved one and honoring their memory...I'm grieving something I never really had to begin with. How do you do that?