I want to thank you for your kind words. It's so difficult sometimes because I have CPTSD, and have been abused before memory began. I don't know sometimes where a trigger might come from as I suppose it is stored in my subconcious. It was so difficult to believe once I realized that this girl was really being cruel and rude to me. I have alot of trouble believing that people are unkind. Even with all the abuse of my life, at the hands of those closest to me; I still like to, and do believe that all humans are basically good. It takes me awhile before I see that evil sarcasm and
cruel intent are in others.
I suppose it's why I isolate so much..."I have my books, and my poetry to protect me...I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain, I touch no one and no one touches me, I am a rock- I am an island..." Simon and Garfunkel--I do love them so much still...heartfelt thanks for your kindnesses towards me---you are a good person-theo