Babysteps, You are so sweet. trying to make me feel better when u feel so horrible. We are here for you.
If been in therapy off and on for years. One thing I've learned is that thoughts and feelings aren't necessarily right or wrong they are just thoughts and feelings. Sometimes it helps me to just observe my thoughts and not judge them so I don't get too stuck in them.
I know, it doesnt' fix everything but it may help.
Hope this helps a little. Take care.