Yeah, I guess I need to think more about what it is I really want her to understand. Or maybe this is just how it goes and I should just get over it. But I think the lesson I have learned is that I don't matter enough to her for her to just stop and acknowledge my existence. Is it not just rude somehow to ignore 5 or six 'hellos' from someone over a six week period? Maybe my expectations are distorted, but I know I would never do that to her.
I guess the real issue here is not her behaviour, but whether how I am affected by things even matters at all. I have lived my life under the assumption that it doesn't/didn't. Now In therapy I am being encouraged to believe that I do matter. And then someone's behaviour seems to say that I don't. Perhaps I am just too susceptible to reading that into things.
I guess I need to just stop thinking about this as it is getting me nowhere but confused. I will just look forward to seeing my friend and leave it at that.