((((((( jexa ))))))))) We understand what you are saying about the circle.
My T had me think on these questions:

1) If you accepted your memories as the truth, how would that change your life now?
2) If you knew for a fact what you remember was the truth, what is the very worst thing that could happen now?

I am still trying to work through the cycle myself... but maybe by sharing with you what T asked me, it may help you some? More hugs!!