Do I think I would benefit from IP? I'm not sure. I don't think I'm a danger to myself yet, but I also know I'm not holding my life together very well right now. I'm really struggling with urges to drink / SI and my PTSD is pretty bad. My addictions Dr. has a good point, that if I were IP and got overwhelmed there would at least be staff to talk to and I'd be safe and wouldn't be able to hurt myself.

My T - who is a trauma specialist, doesn't think I need IP, she thinks we just need to change the focus of the work I'm doing in T right now to making me feel more safe, and work on strategies for affect regulation, and that it's better for me to keep working as the structure is good for me.

I'm really torn.

I definitely wouldn't touch the private hospital IP place, I was there for rehab and it was an unmitigated disaster, but I thought maybe there trauma program would be different, so I at least researched the program. Get this they won't even admit you if you've been Dx'd with and Axis 1 diagnosis. Hello, PTSD is an Axis 1 diagnosis. Then they go further and explicitely state that they don't take patients being treated for MDD.

I guess they only want happy trauma patients who aren't complicated. LOL.

---splitimage