Ever since I raped and told to leave the church I was attending. I've avoided churches and religious gatherings or worship. Not sure what I believe anymore. It was 9 years ago. This year my kids want to go to church tomorrow with my fiances family. His family doesn't know about my PTSD. They now that I have some mental issues but they don't know what they are. When my kids asked if we could go I said yes. I thought of all the churchs in the charleston area there was no way it would be the church that made me lose my faith. Guess I should have known my luck wasn't that good. Tomorrow at 11am I will set foot in the church that told me I wasn't raped, that I was hurting a true man of god by saying he raped me. I'm afraid tomorrow I'll walk in the door and pass out the moment I see some on that reminds me of the past. I want to cut now. My fiance was called in to work so out side of his family(who doesn't know) and my kids (who are 7 and 5) making it through tomorrow is all in my hands. Someone please tell me how I can get through this.