((((((((((dangermagnet)))))))))))

Sometimes my T works with me on recognizing that the fear I am feeling is OLD fear...that the bad things aren't happening now. It feels so NOW, you know?

I wonder if maybe tonight you can remind yourself of that? You are safe now. You are powerful, you will be surrounded by people who love you and who would protect you if anything bad happened.

If it's too much, it's okay to send your kids along with your fiance and his family. You don't *have* to go. You can say (honestly!) that you just don't feel well but that you'll see them when they get home.

Take care of YOU.