Hi Bella,

I agree with others here that it is okay to feel sad and longing and miss him, and it's part of the process of moving on.
Also, it's hard since you've only had one serious relationship to know what a relationship is supposed to be like. It sounds like he was really hard to be with, and didn't treat you right.
But the thing is, it won't be like this forever. Maybe the idea of him or of certain things you had together make it so hard, but the whole, "he's misunderstood and im the only one who gets him, so he can treat me like crap because i know how sensitive and messed up he is," not to sound harsh, but thats just not true.
I can relate to those feelings, and i know how ...they can just lure you in and seem like you can't resist wanting to be with that person. Like, they are dark and mysterious and messed up and complicated and it can just draw you right in, right up to them.
But really, he's not good for you, and if you can let it pass...you will see him more clearly as time goes on. But if you try to get him back or obsess or get involved in a drama with him now, it will only make it harder.... ((((bella))))