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This is getting scary for me- I feel like you are writing from my mind!

That email is just the kind that I send to T, but can never discuss with him in person. I know its scary, but I really dont think T will be angry or upset with you for feeling like you are failing at therapy. I think it is something important that T would welcome- it helps her to understand and help you. Ts are trained not to take everything we say to them personally, even if it is directly about them. My guess is that she will be upset FOR you that you feel like this and how you find it so difficult to talk to her.

Have you told T that you are scared that she will be upset or angry with you? This has been a discussion me and T have had continuously for nearly the whole time I have been with him. And because he knows how I feel about that, he knows to go slowly with me, not to push and just to sit and be patient. My feeling is that your T would probably react the same way- sometimes we need to give T a little to work with, for them to really prove themselves.

Let us know how things go