mommaof3 I'm sorry to hear things are this difficult. Depression is hell...
I hope the hospital program will help you, once your meds are sorted out that should help (once they find what works for you). I know it feels like you'll never feel better, but I do believe you will.
I recently joined a support group in my town... well I went once and then got scared of going again, but the women I met there said that the support group helped them a LOT. Could you do anything like that?

You said you have a case worker, Im not sure what that is, but I think it would help you to get some therapy so you can talk about all of it. SOmetimes it's just too hard on your own, you don't always have the answers... but somebody else might. It's worth a shot, right? (sorry if it's not possible).

Do you feel capable of doing anything with your children? I think they could be a big part in getting you healthier... I know you say even they aren't keeping you going, and with depression etc that's understandable. But maybe you could try to bond with them, do some activities together as a family? I know you want your daughter to get help, you love her and you don't want your problems to affect her into her adult life.... but don't you think that rather needing a therapist, your daughter needs you much more? (that's not to make you feel bad! I do understand. but I hope you can find something positive in the fact that you have 3 children who want and need you.

I hope you see an improvement with the meds soon. I know your frustration, I'm currently on a med which I think is actually making me worse... just waiting for the docs appt on tues to see if I can switch. But in the meantime I feel dreadful.