mismoonshine I know we all react differently to diff medications, but I'm on mirtazipine for depression (that one was chosen cos I'm also recovering from anorexia and mirtazipine increases your appetite --- which explains your weight gain) .... but I HATE it. I can't say I'm more depressed because of the mirtazpine because I don't know, but I feel awful. I'm moody like mad, up and down like mad. I don't know if the med is doing this, or if it's that the med isn't working. But I've got an appointment on tues and I'm going to try to ask to be taken off it and HOPEFULLY try something else that might work. I really suggest you do the same.
I know you don't understand that you're covering up that it doesn't work, but you've acknowledged it's not working (in the desired way). There could be something else you could take that will help you feel better than this, it's worth trying, isn't it?
Please don't tell them what they want to hear, it's in your best interest to be honest, if you don't feel well on this, tell them. x