I try and try and ****ing try to put things back together, relationships, hjearts, sanity but lately everything i try to put back together breaks down. Me and my friend fight quite a bit, i get frustrated because SHE wont talk to me about whats wrong and then saying im not helping her heal and im shutting her out. Well I hope you read this hun **** YOU!!!!!!!!!! I am sick and ****ing tired of dealing with ur mood swing and being the one to get beat up on, so you know what Im done TRYING and WORKING my ****ing *** off to help you and being nice to you when all you do is beat on me. I am tired of this friendship, PLEASE i dont wanna be too mean but stop talking to me period because I am tired of you and your abuse. Ive been trying to help you get over this rape and bipolar **** for ages and then you ****ing bash on me for shutting you out WHEN ALLL I DO IS LISTEN TO UR PROBLEMS AND U NEVER LISTEN TO MINE!!!!!! I am terrified to be myself around you and say what im thinking because i dont wanna hurt you or say something that might affect you. I thought friendship was equally beneficial to someone but all its doing is benefiting you

You say your done, so am I!!! Im finally done!! I always try to fix the relationship but you always **** it up so im done trying to fix whatever we have!!! Im pissed off at you yes, but love is always caring for someone even if thewir not in ur life. I really do love you and care for you, but our friendship is making me severly depressed and suicidal again and I cant deal with it.

Maybe in the future we can retry this friendship over again but right now all your doing to me is causing me frustration, confusion and the destruction of my sanity.

I will always have you in my heart, maybe you wont remeber me in a few months o even give a **** but you will always be and have been my closest and best friend <3

Ferever and Ever In my heart
And I mean this, I hope me not being in ur life makes it better because then well both realise maybe we need eachother or we dont at all
Love, Hillary <3