thanks, kate . the flip side is that i have the most amazing and wonderful pdoc who means the world to me. and i have a new therapist who is meant to be awesome too, but i struggle with trust issues so i'm not quite able to appreciate him fully just yet.

i think my old-t could be a very good T to some people, and i am sure there are many people who would adore him. i think for some reason however that i dredged up a lot of stuff for him - it always felt like we were competing. pdoc said he referred another girl with similar issues to him and she said he said similar things to her. so maybe he just isn't a good trauma therapist, or maybe he is only good with guys, or something. i am sure he must be good because he was a senior psychologist. he just wasn't the right T for me.