For years I have had a recurring dream about my t's. Sometimes it is the one I had in college. Last night it was my current t. I always have these dreams when I'm feeling on the edge of an episode. It is always basically the same. I'm trying to find my t, but I can't. I look everywhere but he has gone somewhere else. I keep missing him. Last night was a variation on the theme. I was trying to call my t and I kept punching in the wrong numbers and having to start over again. I kept trying over and over with no success. It's a really panicky feeling.

That's kind of where I am I guess. Fortunately I see him tomorrow. I think I'll tell him about the dream. I've been on the edge of calling him all weekend, but it really hasn't been an emergency, just that need to connect and recenter.

I had horrible heartburn before I went to bed last night. So bad that I thought maybe it was food poisoning. I considered going to the er. It was lousy. Anyway, I didn't get to sleep until about 5:00 AM, so my sleep was really off last night. I'm sure that was part of what brought on the dream.I'm feeling a bit like a sinking ship right now. (The smiley is perfect.)