Hey Inka,
There have been many times during my therapy that I believed that my T was out to make me crazy and my distrust of my Pdoc was astounding. I don't know what causes these feelings of...paranoia I guess. I just know that it happens only when I am feeling my worst and am in the most need of help from those who I distrust. Please follow Somebody and Mary Alice's advice. Get help right away. It can and will get better once you get the help you need. I know it is going to be hard to trust but please try.
Take care Dear one,
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson