The lack of understanding could very well be on my end. My comprehension level is pretty low right now. But I can see there's a cycle in process. You need help, you reach out, you get no help, you close yourself off. I can't say I blame you for that.

It sounds like some of these friends of yours have been pretty careless. Nobody deserves to be kept waiting and then stood up and then ignored for months.

Don't come up second best for *yourself.* Take care of you first. If you do have three good friends, do reach out to them and see if they can do anything for you. When you need help, make yourself first priority and don't stop asking for what you need until you GET it from someone. If the first person fails you, go on to someone else and keep asking.

And good night to all. It's 10:30 PM here, and I'm going to try to get some rest.