It's very distressing to suddenly retrieve memories that way. especially in chat. It has happened to us too.
We understand the shock !!! It's very hard to admit to yourself that you are DID, despite the fact some of us worked as a t for 40 years, & were suspicious that we might be, still managed to deny it.
It's only after you start to retrieve the memories that you realize how much is missing.
The things we don't remember are blocked by pain, we think.

However we have found that when it gets too much, someone blocks or controls the access to the memories & can make them come slower. We don't know who that is. We hope you can find that too Caroline.
We only began to do this after body's mother died in mid 2003, she was 96, lived with us for over 30 years.
We think perhaps SOMETHING has to happen irl to get this all started or we just use mechanisms of denial.