Hi Sunflower,

I think it most definitely helps. But I've been where you are right now, scared to face another person and all their potential moods, attitudes, feelings, what-have-you...and that intense *focus* that is nice sometimes, but unnerving others.

So I suffered for a long time b/c it was just too unbearable to imagine sitting face-to-face with another person for an hour a week, not to mention the other, more subtle things like, would T be irritated if I did this (cancelled), or i wonder what she REALLY thinks...and every little nuance about a T could drive me crazy...

So i know it takes a lot of courage to go and to find someone, and to keep going to them...and especially to address things that happen within your T relationship that are upsetting...
But also, it doesn't have to happen all at once, thats one thing i like. If you take things real slow and you have a good T and can express to them things like, I had this feeling about this email we corresponded over...then it just takes a long long time, but those little baby steps build up to something really big. They build up to trust and stability eventually.

I don't know i feel like i'm not making sense ? But I just wanted you to know that i have felt so so so so broken, but psychotherapy is helping me, and i think it works with the right person.