No - you did not discourage me. I do tend to be able to role-play alot anyway in my mind because I try to see things from a million points of view. I am very glad my sessions are not recorded though because I am certain my acting stinks! LOL !!!
I had another major piece of blocked information come forward last night and even had to call T this time - I rarely use the phone but I had to hear him and not just vent in email because the night before was hard for me and this new info had me ready to SI right then and there. He was so kind - just doing his laundry - and he reminded me it would be ok. It helped me to not think about what I had blocked out because I was thinking how T was a human and doing his laundry with his family. That was very cool :-)

So today I NEED to share what I had blocked rather than doing my dad work. And this is not going to be easy since I think it was the deepest trauma. Finally do think I am at the very bottom of the trauma tank. Yippie !!