Thanks all. I forgot I began this thread and when I read the subject line I thought, Wow can I relate! Then I came and found out.. yep it's mine! Oh my. I am in such horrible pain... I had one of the busiest weeks of the year.. (cept for May?) wait, May is a MONTH.. duh me.

I had to go out last night to a church report meeting and in the middle of it, one of my leadwires on my TENS unit shorted and I SCREAMED out in pain from the shock (it was on high) then the embarassment later...guess they will learn how disabled I am! My T suggested I just didn't want to show them so graphically.

Today I had a major meltdown. My sister says I'm going to hell for going to the concert. Sigh. That is HER problem.. but I didn't have the words or the wherewithal to counter her on anything... and she insists I have written my own "doctrine" to believe (she disregards the millions of others )

I'm in level 9+ pain WITH meds on board and the TENS (one good leadwires left) and ice packs... I cancelled the housekeeper, Sears didn't show either so I rescheduled grrrrr I HATE this. I called the medical supply co and found out they never received my request for new wires (a few weeks ago) so they are on the way NOW....

Had an emergency call to T. How sweet of him to call back (within like 20 minutes??) I didn't need to go over all the stuff, but needed help to reassess my reactions and feeling so overwhelmed... which he did... To the point where within the hour I called the maid service to reschedule... the girl there was so upset and apologizing and saying how many ppl had been calling and yelling at her, I was able to chuckle, assure her I wasn't going to yell at her, as I had yelled at enough ppl today and had met my "quota" .. she and I laughed together on the phone, and for a brief moment I felt HEY I CAN DO THIS!

My T had said that I AM DOING this.. not "trying" but doing... but also that I need to "stay in my cave" for a day or two and take care of ME.

Thanks all for bearing with me GGGRRRRR (((fuzzybear)))