Melbadaze. I can so empathize with how you're feeling. I still feel terribly sad when I think of my former psychiatric nurse - I know logically that it wasn't a friendship, but that doesn't help - I still miss her terribly and I don't feel it's something I can talk about to others very easily either. Also, I have a very good online friend I met at another forum, and when they were extremely suicidal, I panicked that they would die and I wouldn't ever hear what had happened, which would leave a huge hole in my life and no-one would understand.

I don't know how to get beyond this - perhaps as we heal, we naturally find other things to replace the intensity of the relationship with our Ts? - don't know, but just wanted to say how much I feel this too.