thank you googley.

i feel stupid for posting because i know this is ridiculous, but austin-t really has become scary in my head and i've been agonising all morning whether to text him or not so i feel bad he hasn't replied, because it took a lot for me to ask for a new appt.

usually i am good about waiting for his replies and there isn't any angst. this is just a hangover from last week, i know. but the hangover hasn't been resolved so this is really, really, really scary. i'm worried he'll say no to me coming back and then pdoc will be angry at me for screwing up because i always screw up therapy and i'm no good that way.