After a really good session today, I broke down crying as i was walking to my car. It's not like me at all. It was a good session and I allowed myself to be vulnerable. I shared feelings about her and my fears of losing people and being alone. A part of me was feeling very needy and yearning for something. My T was completely engaged with me and hearing me. It was a great session. I felt like my needs were being met, but then the tears started flowing when I left. I was hurting about something, but don't know why. I realized that I can't stand to feel sad, or any feelings that make me cry. I can't stand to be alone with those feelings. T told me that she is more comfortable crying alone than i am. I had asked her if she cries alone or if she gets comforted by someone. she said both. It made me feel good that t hurts sometimes and cries (not that I want her to hurt). She said do i not think she is human? I know she is human, i love her for it. I felt un-alone (don't know how else to describe it). Why would I break down after such a good session? I really confuse myself sometimes!