thanks, tay - you're right. i'm letting worry thoughts take control. i feel dread right now and i can't shift that but at least i can stop myself from compounding that feeling by making up reasons (true or not) for it.
i hope austin-t replies at some point today but if not pdoc will know what to do tomorrow. even if he doesn't fix it directly he can coach me in what to say.
blergh. i feel like such a loser for being panicky about this and also for depending on pdoc so much. but i'm just going to thought-stop now and do some uni work (statistics!) instead. at least i'll have a very valid reason for feeling grumpy afterwards.