I am just here to vent. Cuz I don't have anyone to talk to. Through out counseling process, I was told that it's OK and very healthy thing to let out negative stuff. Which I wasn't able to do it since I was born. Getting angry, upset or crying was forbidden in my house. I was taught that expressing anything negative is bad.

I am not here to piss off anyone on purpose. I am sharing my experience. Of course I can talk about good things, the most wonderful things about how P docs or counselors or therapists was able to do for me. But at the moment I have a lot of anger which I can not express to anyone in real life. Because they are all running away from me and I thought this place was full of people who go through struggle and share good or bad experience and support each other.

I see a lot of threads talking about falling in love with T and wonderful things they have done etc... I've read a lot of them.

If this place is talking about only good things then I think I am in the wrong place.

The important thing here is that I am expressing my frustrations that I had.
You guys don't have to explain to me what my counselor was trying to tell me. I already know. Also, I wanted to hear from anyone who had experience like I did.
Is it me? that I am not communicating with ppl properly?

Someone mentioned earlier here that the comments that I had from counselor's are unusual. I am being really honest here.

I've been struggling so long, so hard I am trying to help myself now because I feel like I am so screwed up and hopeless that no one can save me except myself.

If any of you knows better place for me to go and vent (web site)
Please let me know.