I am scared and unsure what is happening. I feel so exposed within and so much talking that it never stops. So much fear yet somehow it feels somewhat as a relief. Words keep infiltrating my mind. Constant--sometimes so many I cannot get them out fast enough and sometimes just a stream that keeps coming. Sleep----what is it? Once again I have sat up all night yet I do not know if I have said anything or what all I have done. Time----what is it? Where does it go? Tears----do they ever end? What once never flowed is constantly filling my eyes and burning inside.

I do not know if I am saying anything that makes sense. The voices of those within are distinct yet at times almost too silent. But many times within that silence, in a volume no one else hears is screaming in words I cannot get or maybe I am trying to get away from. Something inside me screams out. Those within realizing they are not alone. But somewhere in it all I feel alone. Unable to say what I need to I write hoping that someone will know I am here.

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