Well... sadly 3+ years later here I am. Not much has changed since then. I've moved about three times and for the moment live in a camper on my aunts property. Still pretty much flat broke but also not out there looking for a job. I feel like such a burden on those around me. I have a girlfriend, tho not sure what she is doing still with me.. I want to push her out of my life but worried that will just leave me even more isolated. All I really do is sit in my camper and try to pass the time, usually until 9 or 10 in the morning then I finally drift off to sleep for a few hours. I don't know, everyone near me says I need a job. Do I ever, it' been a year since my last job. I smoke some pot every now and the to help me sleep but I fear even talking to possible employers because of this... I'm trying not to eat much of their food but I find it hard to go too long without it. I don't really understand what I'm doing back here anyway.. guess they're hoping I'll get a hair up my but and help them with their house. Now I owe them ~15k because the insisted on helping with some nw bills I had collected since my first post here. Also my brother and sister have bailed on me when it comes to the 55k each I gave them back in late 06 when my uncle passed leaving me with a 135k+ debt to the irs (I know..my bad for not holding onto the money even tho they're college educated butts insisted that because it was a death bennifit I would owe no taxes.... but I digress.

Not really looking for a response to this... just wish I had gone to see a doctor so many years ago. Maybe this is the year I'll find a way to pay for it :/

Hopefully someday I'll update this thread with a happy ending and have something to look back on. Thanks for not deleting me yet, will.