Thank you so much, cantstopcrying, for your compassionate, heartfelt post. Explaining that anger goes along with the pain helped me understand better why one minute I am agry and the next minute in tears..

When I think of Matt, I see his smiling face.. I can still see him walking in the room. His shoulders always back and his chest out. A walk of confidence. A gentle personality, but not a push over...Always smiling...Only flashy thing about him was his smile.. If he were here right now, I'd smack him for even thinking suicide.. :*( then hug him............

I am sorry that this kind of tragedy touched your life too.....so very sad.....