I think most of us never stop craving for love and affection from our parents and immediate family even if we know that it will never happen, never work out. It is just something built inside of us that we crave, but don't beat yourself up about sending the pictures and wanting their love and affection. Everyone wants their parent's love and affection, that is perfectly normal. Try not to be so hard on yourself, take some deep breaths and remember all the wonderful people that love you on here!