As wonderful as the internet is for some things (look at us on pc), facebook and classmates and such really trigger things in people, trying to go back to the past, find things they enjoyed when they were young, things they may have missed. It sounds like she--and you--were married young...it's possible she is regretting "missing" things by being married so young while not realizing everything she had. I am so sorry for your pain...you're right, they don't say it will get worse...and it does. If you thought your marriage had ups and downs, I'm sorry to say that divorce is even more of a rollercoaster--at least for me it was. You think you can pull through, then it hits you. But you can pull through. While it's normal to wonder why, to wonder how she could do it, that is something that you most likely won't know. One thing you do need to do is to take care of yourself. Be there for your kids and grandkids, but be there for you! Having someone to share your life with, even when it isn't all good, is what I missed, too. Don't think that you'll be alone forever...forever is a long time. Take some of that time to heal, to take care of you.