Or Should I say.... Hill took over. I really don't like this. When Hill takes over.... SI happens. I was feeling some physical pain, and knew that inflicting more pain may help. And that's when Hill took over and did the SI bit. And I gave her more power.... how much more power will it take before she....... I can't take this anymore. When I talk about her, it causes more pain and she wants to si even more afterwards. I just don't know what I can do.

What can I do? what should I do? How long can I resist to cut? When will the next SI be? When will she give up? What will hapen to me?