I was bad. I took a pill that I knew made me feel better in the past without any dr's consultation. I didn't realize there was a p-doc covering for mine. They didn't tell me that. But due to others' encouragement I called back and left a message for the covering doc they never bothered to inform me of in the first place. He suggested (without my saying a word about what I had done) that I go back up on the one I'd just taken and stop taking the other new one (which I'd already decided to eliminate).

I guess I'm a good p-doc for myself. Now I'm all drowsy from that pill, but at least not super depressed and anxious.

Thanks for your help all. I don't know why I didn't think of that to begin with. But what kind of receptionist says, "She's on vacation, but I can leave her a message for when she gets back next week" after you just said "I need a meds change now because I'm feeling terrible." No hint at all whatsoever that anyone else could help me. And when I call back she says the other guy won't be changing anything. I had to say, "I just want an alteration of what I'm already taking." She said she couldn't make any guarantees. I almost didn't care at this point because I'd already decided what I was going to do.

But at least I didn't do anything wrong in retrospect.