Spirit Wing,

I feel for you. I understand exactly where you are coming from. I myself had to deal with some of the same issues that you are going through with your husband. I wish you the best of luck, but don't just settle and give him everything. As far as your illness, I am struggling with some of the same issues. I was hurt and angry at my ex husband, and I also ran my mouth and said a lot of hurtful things to him over the years because of my pain. My husband decided he couldn't do it anymore and my mouth only got worse. It is something that I am battling. I am really trying not to get so angry and say and do hurtful things. It is a really hard battle. I wish you the best of luck.