I honestly do not know why I am drawn to the wrong men. I have asked myself over and over why I continue down the same path. I guess part of me doesn't think I deserve anything better. I have a crazy family, and I have always been too scared to introduce just anyone to them. I don't know if that is the problem or not. I have only let 2 men in to my heart and both of those men have destroyed me. I have a really low self esteem now. I gained a lot of weight due to depression over the last 7 years. I want so badly to find a man that just loves me for me......